come on, skinny love, just last the year

[mooging]

First, an insta-rec! i've got an atlas in my hands by pidgeoned. I am head over heels for everything pidgeoned writes, but I think this might be my very favourite. For this kink meme prompt: [Andrew and Jesse] meet up halfway through the summer when they get some time off, to decompress and hide from the world, and get to know each other again. Also by pidgeoned and that made me weep everywhere at three in the morning when I should have been asleep: mapmaker, mapmaker, make me a map. For other embarrassingly enthusiastic recs, here is where I unleashed my insanity upon poor hold_onhope. I am sure that everyone has already read everything there, but NEVER MIND, READ IT AGAIN. The sad thing is, that is not even the entire list of all the fic I love. TSN FANDOM, WHY SO AMAZE?

asghfjfg okay, so, my internet is still all over the place but more irritatingly, I have got a pleasing combination of both writer's block and writer's paralytic paranoia that everything I write needs to meet the backspace button at once. On the other hand, I somehow managed to finagle the weekend off work, so I have totally got time to do this stupid thing to shove myself back into MS Word:

Help me get over stupid writer's stumbling blocks by leaving me a prompt in the comments? I will comment fic it up for anyone who asks! Any prompt! Anything! THIS IS A PITIFUL PLEA FOR HELP, YOU GUYS. I AM A SHAM OF A HUMAN. COME LEAVE ME A PROMPT TO VALIDATE MY EXISTENCE.

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[daisysusan.livejournal.com]

1. EVERYTHING YOU WRITE IS LOVELY FEEL VALIDATED.

2. I have legitimately read Sweet on You so many times I QUOTE IT IN MY EVERYDAY EXISTENCE AND THEN PEOPLE LOOK AT ME ALL SIDE-EYE. SEND HELP.

3. Prompt ... uh, Jesse helps Andrew with his American accent. Cause, you know, it kinda sucked on Doctor Who and Andrew is all nervous that he'll ruin Spiderman. IDEK this is totally crack ignore me.

[anysomething.livejournal.com]

thanks for those recs! there were a couple I missed in there.

writer's block is the worst thing. i want to bludgeon it with all the clubs in all the world. there's a casablanca reference in here somewhere.

so...um...a prompt!

Eduardo picks up photography as a hobby and finds, to his surprise, that Mark makes an excellent subject. (bahahah i fit modeling and silly hobbies into the same prompt. what is this even, idk.)

[attempt-unique.livejournal.com]

Awesome rec set!

As for prompts: Mark stays up all night coding and happens to catch the early weather report. He just happens to start watching it every morning, which has nothing to do with meteorologist Eduardo.

[janonny.livejournal.com]

INSTA-RECS YEAH! *runs off to read*

Alright, I was gonna prompt this on the kinkmeme but I can prompt it here too since you know Inception:

Andrew Arthur and Jesse Eames. Okay, the names don't have to stick, but I was talking with a friend and we thought, wouldn't it be hilarious if Andrew was a pointman and Jesse was a forger in the Inception universe? Teams would get together and be like "what, seriously?" when they looked at neurotic, very clever but looks all of 20 years old Jesse and :D affectionate rambly Andrew. They would be brilliant at what they do in dreams, but anyone else meeting them for the first time would be all 'wtffffff.'

OBVIOUSLY I LIKE CRACK OK.

You don't have to comment fic this. It's ridiculous but I just needed to share what amuses me with the world. :P

[moogle62.livejournal.com]

hdgjsdgfj this might be terrible, I am sorry, I have had so much coffee my head feels fuzzy, apologies forever.

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It never fails to amaze Andrew, what Jesse can do. It's a standard part of most jobs these days; marks are too quick to open up to someone they think they know, too trusting in their own minds. Andrew's own mind is full of hypotheticals, turning over and over months of quicksilver research. He can stand in a man's dream and know him better than he knows himself, knows what might be around every corner just as soundly as he knows the corner itself, studied for nights on end with Jesse behind him, drinking horrible-smelling herbal tea and tracing the inked lines of the schematic as Justin sleeps somnacin-heavy in the lounger at the far end of the warehouse. Jesse likes maps; lines on a page like reading a country, and Jesse can read people just as easily, slipping in and out of other people's skin faster than any forger Andrew has ever known. Jesse plays with genes like they're two sizes too big, the easiest fit; Andrew has trouble slipping in and out of his jeans.

People don't hesitate to hire them now, years into the business, but they've paid more dues than they've owed to get there. In the waking world, Jesse is quiet, more nervous, running the pads of his fingers over the arms of his glasses every other word. Andrew doesn't know what's written there, what the inscription is that tethers Jesse to accepting what he sees through their lens, but he understands. He wears the same belt day in, day out, smoothing a thumb over its edge at his hip, under his worn shirt hem. Justin teases him about notches on his belt whenever he gets the chance, but Andrew can laugh it off with fingers on the buckle, the only thing he leaves his fingerprints on. He wears the belt one hole tighter than he did when he first got into the business, but it doesn't bother him. It doesn't bother Jesse either, but he does draw his lips tight every time Andrew pulls back to take it off himself, when Jesse has to drop his hands to his sides, away from Andrew's skin. Jesse can strip everything away from him, Andrew knows; he has to be the one to let this piece go.

Andrew is the best at what he does, the most dedicated, the most efficient. He's seen other pointmen grow cold with it, with learning the worst about people every day, with the responsibility of preparation. He bumped into a guy in Paris, once, wearing a three-piece suit and a three-point scowl in his eyebrows, the tight line of his mouth, the set of his jaw. It'd been nothing, brushing past each other on the street, but this job means knowing people in your line of work without ever exchanging a word, and Andrew had thought pointman, and hooked his thumb in his waistband, unconscious, just as the man brushing past his shoulder had dipped his fingers into his waistcoat pocket. Andrew does not want to be that man. He lets himself loop his arm over Jesse's shoulders even when they're working, lets their ankles cross when they're lying back and clenching their fists, waiting for the needle. It makes people uncomfortable, the way Jesse's fidgeting makes them uncomfortable, but it makes Andrew better, at his job, for himself. He thinks it makes Jesse better at being himself.

(Once, foreheads touching on a New Orleanian hotel pillow, Jesse had confessed he feels better as other people, wearing someone else's skin.)

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auuuuugh WHAT WAS THAT, THAT WAS NOT WHAT I SET OUT TO WRITE. I MAY BE BACK WITH MORE CRACK AND LESS OF THIS ANGSTY NONSENSE, APOLOGIES FOREVER.

edit: written to this song (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5fqIsfZ_rcY).

[janonny.livejournal.com]

OH. OHMYGAWD. You took my crazy ridiculous prompt seriously and you nailed it! And all the little details you packed into a few paragraphs.

Jesse with his glasses, and the belt, Jesse can strip everything away from him, Andrew knows; he has to be the one to let this piece go, and HI ARTHUR CAMEO APPEARANCE and the last line, guuuuuh.

*Chinhands* Hi, bb. You're awesome.

[hold-onhope.livejournal.com]

... and with four paragraphs, you have put my J2/Inception AU to shame.

He thinks it makes Jesse better at being himself.
♥ ♥ ♥

[happy-braindead.livejournal.com]

Yay for more recs!! I swear I'm too emotionally invested in this fandom that it ruins my life and I don't even care. <3

I'm sorry to hear about your stupid internet and your writer's block, but here's a prompt for you: justin bartha as jesse and andrew's matchmaker. I don't mind if it's an au fic or not. :)

Hope everything gets better soon. <33

[happy-braindead.livejournal.com]

Yay for more recs!! I swear I'm too emotionally invested in this fandom that it's ruining my life and I don't even care. <3

I'm sorry to hear about your stupid internet and your writer's block, dear, but here's a prompt for you: justin bartha as jesse and andrew's matchmaker. I wouldn't mind if it's an au fic or not. :)

anyway, I hope everything gets better soon. <33

[antistar-e.livejournal.com]

Oh my goddddd, that fic. I remember reading Mapmaker when it was first published and wallowing around the house for the rest of the day because HOW COULD ANYTHING COMPETE, but I didn't realize pidgeoned got so prolific after that. I literally spent an entire day one devouring everything she's ever posted, and I want to hug it all. MY FEELINGS, SHE HAS ALL OF THEM.

Also. MOOG IS OFFERING FIC? OH MY GOD LET ME DIE I WANT EVERYTHING. CAN I HAVE EVERYTHING?

Okay, but no, seriously. Prompt! Ummm, how about some of that time-traveler Dustin you were telling me about? >)

[hold-onhope.livejournal.com]

I LOVE YOUR INSANITY. I feel so, so far behind on this fandom, and I have the urge to read EVERYTHING AT ONCE, it's like, intoxicating. OH GOD, I AM GOING TO DIE. MY HEADSTONE WILL READ "SHE FANGIRLED TO DEATH"

[moogle62.livejournal.com]

WHAT AN EXCELLENT WAY TO GO. How are you doing with fic, bb? DO YOU HAVE FAVOURITES? COME TALK TO ME ABOUT FIC SJHDGHJD THIS FANDOM.

[hold-onhope.livejournal.com]

OH MY GOD MOOG I READ THE DOCTOR WHO CROSSOVER AND IT WAS THE BEST MOMENT OF MY LIIIIFE. I WANT WARDO AS COMPANION. NO, I NEED WARDO AS COMPANION. AND MARK. JLALALFJDKLAS. NOW.

I have been dividing my time between fic, catching up on allll of the press they did for the film (SO MUCH OF IT :D), and working my way through Andrew and Jesse's filmographies. (Andrew Garfield, why can't you act in movies that have happy endings? Why? Why have I spent two nights this week crying in front of my computer at early hours...?) OH ALSO AND WATCHING THE TSN EXTRAS. The commentery! The documentary! I AM DRUNK ON LOVE, OKAY, I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME.

[moogle62.livejournal.com]

THE DOCTOR WHO CROSSOVER AND ITS SEQUEL ARE MY FAVOURITE FICS IN THIS FANDOM. SKJDBFJHSG I CANNOT EVEN, I JUST WANT TO ROLL AROUND IN THEM FOREVER. Did you cry? I cried so much. But not even in a sad way, just a - quiet way. idk. shjdgfsjh HOLD ME.

(Seriously, right? Andrew Garfield? Did you watch NLMG and Boy A? HERE ARE ALL THE TISSUES AND HUGS, fucking hell. Boy A gutted me, but Never Let Me Go - I have never cried so much at a film in my entire life. I couldn't talk about it afterwards. I was a wreck. UGH DO A ROMCOM OR SMTH. BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN: THE MUSICAL, CO-STARRING JESSE. THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER WITH SONG!)

ugh also I am currently writing the most self-indulgent Andrew/Jesse thing in the entire world to try to get over this writer's block so I can press on with the help_japan fics I have to write. ALL THE PROMPTS ARE MORE EXCELLENT THAN I CAN DO JUSTIIIIIIIICE, SEND HELP.

kdhjfksj also I am so looking forward to catching up on SPN. I have seen, like, the first ~four episodes of this season and that is it. I was also MASSIVELY SPOILED for a thing near the end, but I am pretty unspoiled otherwise. I JUST WANT MORE CAS/DEAN IN MY EYES.

[hold-onhope.livejournal.com]

I CRIED. HAPPY TEARS. SAD TEARS. AND THEN, AND THEN, EVERYTHING WAS BEAUTIFUL, AND NOTHING WILL EVER HURT AGAIIIIN. Seriously. It is still tabbed on my browser because I don't have the heart to click away. D:

(YES, NLMG turned me into a sobbing mess, it would have been embarrassing if anyone was around to see it. I couldn't even THINK about Andrew's stupid gigantic doe eyes without feeling sad. I hardly EVER cry at movies or television, not even if I'm really sad and *want* to cry... I can count on one hand the number of films that I have cried in, and NLMG brings that total up to three. THREE. And I watched Boy A last night and my feeeelings, they didn't know what to do.

UGH DO A ROMCOM OR SMTH. BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN: THE MUSICAL, CO-STARRING JESSE. THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER WITH SONG!

YES PLEASE.)

You are writing omgggg I don't care if it's self-indulgent or not, it is going to be perfectly lovely! ♥

My brother looked at me yesterday when I was watching movie extras and said, "You're obsessed with that movie, aren't you?" And my only thought was DAMN, I DID A GOOD JOB OF HIDING THIS. IT TOOK HIM A WEEK TO FIGURE IT OUT! Heh, I am a dork.

Ahhhh SPN. This season... I don't know what to think. Let's just say it toyed with my sympathies. I was like a little kid watching her parents fight, I do not even. I JUST WANT RAINBOWS AND PUPPY DOGS AND TEAM FREE WILL BEING DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY, IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK?!

[pidgeoned.livejournal.com]

WHY THO. WHYYY. OH MY GOD I AM SO EMBARRASSED. >_>

This is the first time I've actually checked my f-list ( AND I SEE THIS! ) as I have like, only three friends, my journal included, lolololol. OH MY GOD moogle62 YOU ARE MY FAVOURITE. *SCREAMS INTERNALLY* THANK YOU FOR RECCING ME! I DON'T THINK ANYONE'S DONE THAT BEFORE. SOBS UNCONTROLLABLY AND USES YOUR SHIRT TO BLOW ON. SOBBING. SO. HARD.

[moogle62.livejournal.com]

OH WHAT EVEN, YOU ARE THE ACTUAL BEST. WHENEVER I SEE YOU HAVE POSTED FIC, I ACTUALLY STOP WHATEVER IT IS I WAS DOING AND READ YOUR FIC AT ONCE. AKJSGDFJHF FLAPPY HANDS ALL OVER THE PLACE. SERIOUSLY. HOW ARE YOU EVEN THIS GOOD. WHAT IS YOUR SECRET. HOW IS YOUR MUSICAL TASTE SO EXCELLENT. WHERE IS MY PUNCTUATION OH WAIT MY LOVE HAS EATEN IT.

kjsdfhj and I am sure you must have been rec'd before. You are excellent. jshdfjdgdfhj &YOU;